wondering why i'm here, now, and why me, provides that everything actually is set up and already planned by someone beyond us. you ask why such a philosophical thought passed my mind, but there's no simple answer.
and why i'm meditating on it right now if I have never thought about it before?
it showed up one rainy, foggy day and made me think about tomorrow every day.

see, ask yourself if there's any truth in this remark moreover if it makes sense.